Those scary 5 words…

I should be happy you know, that people look at me and see those traits. Yesterday it happened again…I am joking with the Priest as I entered the confessional (I know you aren’t suppose to be happy about it, but I get excited to join the communion of the Church again) and sit down. I have my “Stop, Drop, and Roll doesn’t work in Hell” on with some shorts. So I am not wearing the JP2 Crucifix or anything like that. We begin the sacrament and I utter those nasty little things that hold me back. We speak a little about things and I explain why I feel the sins hurt me. He offers some advice and prayers for me as we sit there. Then comes the 5 words every serious Catholic man hears often, “Have you considered the Priesthood?” We then speak about the vocation. I told him about my past dissernment and that I don’t think that is God’s calling but I would always leave the door open for God. He asked for me to take a serious look again. God has blessed me more than I can write on this page. I think I owe it to God to open myself up on request of this rabbi once again. The doors are all open for whatever God has. SHEESH! :) I am ready to leave those doors open to it all. Life in general. Since the divorce I have closed off everything. My favorite scripture is Sirach 33:13 and I think its time that I really let the maker shape this ball of clay. I think I may try and post daily about it this time. Will let you know!

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