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We are all one body…

Nick — Sat, 31 May 2008 21:35:07 +0000

One of the most enjoyable activities for me is to simply sit an airport. The cross section of society is laid in front of you to sample and review. After a few minutes of sampling the room, I find myself asking “Do I do that?”

God truly implants into our hearts the ability to see past the skin and on to the light within us all. That warm fuzzy feeling you get when you meet someone for the first time or the tremble in your hand as you meet a shaddy character. We have an uncanny ability to sense the nature of someone in the simpliest of forms without knowing them. It is through experinces and life that we become simply the human lithmus test of character.

So what does it say about me sitting here in this airport when I can see a little bit of me in all of them? My gut reaction when looking at the trophy wife sitting across from me is that she is naive and superficial but when I review it closer what I see is emptiness. Why is it that I can relate entirely with her emptiness and vanity in one small moment? Seeing the young geeky kid writing away on his moleskin appears at first glance to be sterotypical. His pale white skin shines against the all black he wears and I can’t help but think to myself that he must be deep in thought. I remember being the geeky kid armed with pen and pad writing away my memories and dreams. In the years since those days in the lunch hall I would love to imagine I have changed, possibly. My exterior has certainely changed but here I am typing away my memories and dreams.

Theologically we are all One Body of Christ. I know that within my soul there is a piece of them all. What we sometimes forget is that within that body there is a more than a person. In our inability to comprehend the true meaning of the Gospel we mask the words in humanity. Maybe seeing our traits and characters in others is the true display of that Body of Christ. It isn’t my ears or eyes that make up the body but rather my joy. Well, I hope it is my joy.

The geeky kid a few rows over is looking at me as he writes, gently hiding his eyes as I find him staring. I wonder if he is sitting there seeing part of himself in me. I wonder what part of him he sees.

Voting Catholic

Nick — Sat, 10 May 2008 16:11:06 +0000

My family and I had a discussion last night that really sparked my synaptic in the old head. The current ream of candidates just doesn’t allow for a Catholic to vote in accordance with our values. One one side of the aisle you have a pro-abortion, anti-marriage, pro-euthanasia group that values welfare. Hop and skip to the other side and there you have a pro-torture, pro-war, pro-spending (as of late) conglomerate. If we lay out the Catholic Values of peace and goodwill to man it is getting really hard to vote. I can only speak for myself, but it comes down to what is more important. Is it more important that the unborn live or that the millions of people caught-up in Nation Building do not die. Why am I forced in America to review the sanctity of life on a global perspective? How sad has politics become when rather than discussing such issues as these we get caught up with 400 dollar haircuts, crazy pastors, or dodging make believe bullets?

I disagree with holding your nose and voting. That is why this year I voted for Ron Paul. Did I agree with Paul on all counts? Nope, not even a little bit. What I wanted the current society to see is that there is a group of us out there who are not happy with things the way they are. My subset (Catholic Minded Votes) has no voice in the current political market. I am glad that the Church does not get involved with politics and does not endorse politicians but I wish someone would step forward with a Knights of Columbus pin on their lapel.

What are we to do? It seems that voting with your nose plugged simply allows politicians to continue with the current trends. Why would they change their ways if you as a voter continue to support the paradigm of lesser evils. It is my recommendation that we vote for a true politician that supports us. The argument that the democrats or republicans will win depending on your leanings doesn’t matter. Can you tell the difference between the two? What does it matter if Obama or McCain wins? Outcome is the same…

Ninja Turtle Marketing

Nick — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 03:36:55 +0000

I have been thinking a lot lately about devotion and effort. I know what you are thinking, devotion to the law shouldn’t require effort, blah blah blah. When you are in heaven shoot me a little smile but I am still a work in progress.

What stemmed all of this is a desire to create something. From the earliest of days watching TV and reading newspapers we are marketed to. For some reason, to this day if I hear the ninja turtle theme song I still have a strong desire to do my cool dance and go out and buy pizza. Why? It was marketed to me as a youngster.

With marketing so prevalent in our society it is no wonder that we place ourselves in a similar situation as single people. We market ourselves. “I think I will pick a little sweet guy, pinch of living life on the edge, dab of outdoorsy, and a ounce of crazy hair.” It is just a formula now that we throw out to the world as a face to what is really us.

So lately I figured out what it is I am marketing to the world. The conclusion I came to is that I was marketing the exact opposite to the man I really am. I am a geek, Gregorian Chant is on my iPod, Theology books are more interesting than TV, I love running, fast motorcycles make me smile, I don’t watch TV, and most of all, I am happy. There I said it. You see I think the trap we all fall into as young Christians (or fallen Christians) is that we market ourselves to the world around.

It is time to stop playing dress up and move beyond the superficialness we showcase. Stop making yourself “the one” and instead be someone’s “one.” I have a great hope in my heart that somewhere there is a young lady who would be loving some goofy, geeky, guy like me. I am going to stretch my “being Nick” muscles and workout more with God. Being devoted to Our Lord is happiness enough for me. Showing Him the devotion is showing me that marketing is like fishing with a boot. You might catch something but it isn’t anything you would want.

Dead Poetic – Vices Lyrics

Nick — Tue, 25 Dec 2007 09:05:44 +0000

I love this song, it is a little hard rock but the lyrics hit me so hard. It is refreshing to hear Christian music that talks about the true struggle.

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Feeling cold, feeling empty. Set the stage, where you want me.
And this crowd right before me doesn’t care that I’m dying.
And the audience stands with their eyes fixed on the preconceived version of me.
I’m so betrayed by your hopes, but I will not hide myself for your peace of mind.

Oh, but Child. I’ve got Vices like any other man.

Raise a boy to a cynic. Take his love, and then let it turn into something passionate.
Something sick, something rabid.
And I vent to keep myself from caving. I don’t hate you, I just hate where I’m heading.
I’m left here asking, when did I trade in my bleeding heart for a selfish win?

Oh, but Mother. I’ve got Vices like any other man.
Vices that you’re not used to. Vices that’ll make you think less of me.

Leave me numb. Leave me jaded. She’s a dream, I just play dead.
I’ve been blessed, I’ve been hated. She’s the constant, and I’m her addict.
She’s the only peace in this world, uneasy.
While I bite my tongue to keep from breaking the heart that I’ve spent my whole life seeking.
The only heart I’ve ever needed.

Oh, but Lover. I’ve got Vices like any other man.
Vices that you’re not used to. Vices that’ll make you think…
Oh, but Lover. I’ve got Vices like any other man.
Vices that you’re not used to. Vices that’ll make you think less of me. Less of me.

Feeling cold, feeling empty. I am low, unworthy.
Bleed the God. Bleed the blessing. Like a vulture feasting.
I’ll exist as if I don’t feel conviction of my ignorance to my perfect prison.
But I feel the stabs on my wrists and ankles every time I try…

To forget you. To forget you.

Oh, but Jesus. I’ve got Vices like any other man.
Vices that you’re so used to. Vices that won’t make you think less of me

Note to self: get new paul wri…

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 20:48:13 +0000

Note to self: get new paul wright cd