Miss you at night

I miss you most at night,
When I lay awake alone in bed,
Sleeping diagonal fills the space,
But doesn’t grace the pillow with your head,

Our sporadic phone calls don’t help,
When you call I have too much to say,
Instead I ask about the weather,
And how was your busy day,

It is your duty and that I understand,
I once wore that uniform myself,
But never have I been here,
With my emotions bottled on the shelf,

I feel safer behind my words,
Then my voice on the phone,
I can think off all the things to say,
Tell you how I am so alone,

My love come back safely,
Serve with dignity and honor,
Think not of my pain,
I can wait much longer,

Tainted Love

Oh tainted love cast thy stone,
Into the pits of my soggy soul,
Thy water is but a broken rippled glass,
Thy rock falls into the blackness of a hole,

The acute infinite hole in my life,
Filled with the waterfalls of my face,
This pond of emotion and feelings,
Is only thy first bite of the bitter taste,

But once, but twice I take this fork,
And stab into my fragile construction,
This fullness of dark matter within,
Seems only God’s contemptible introduction,

Take thy mate back O’ Lord above,
For my exhausted searches hath not found her,
This fair lady must be something amazing and conspicuous,
I for one am unworthy as a coward,

Hope is but one drop of water,
Falling from the cliffs of my starry eyes,
O’ Lord I pray for thee serenity,
And for this world to take back it’s tainted lies…

Boyfriend is a bum

I cry these tears not for you,
but all that will surely come,
I know you will get hurt again;
your boyfriend is such a bum,

He decided to call me tonight,
and tell me you were his toy,
you are just like his possessions,
another trophy to a little boy,

I dare not call him a man,
for he opens his fist to you,
a man does not do these things,
a man to you is true,

I don’t want you back I know,
for forever he has messed up your mind,
I guess you didn’t want a man,
That treated you so kind,

Dinner in my kitchen,
with candles all around,
a walk on the pier tonight,
a happiness yet not found,

Instead you told me you needed,
a second chance to give to him,
that although I made you happy,
I was nothing more than a whim,

and when at 11:55 I sat on the field,
where I planned to dance under the stars,
you let him call me and tell me,
from you I was forever barred,

I wish I could say I will keep away,
for I know I am not that strong,
I have sat back with honor and integrity,
I have waited much to long,

When you walked the halls of our school,
holding his hand with a smile,
he was out that night with another;
you sat there in denial,

and then you realized that he wasn’t for you,
and my number you did but call,
I should have known better than to answer,
so fast I knew I would fall,

You cooked me dinner at your house,
my favorite dish was great,
we watched a movie I rented,
but I guess I was just cheap bait,

I watched you cry in my arms,
when you told me goodbye,
now I sit here and wonder,
if it was all just one big lie,

Why is that the nicest guys,
will always will finish last,
that no matter how well you are treated,
you go back to your past,

I would have given you the world,
if you had only said the words;
instead you went away from me,
flying like two love birds,

I sit here under candle light,
where you were suppose to be,
now I am but stronger,
the truth I clearly see,

Fear not I am a puzzle maker,
and I know you will be back,
I will put you back together again,
when you find out all he lacks,

You opened my door and cooked me dinner,
did all the things I never asked,
being with you was never second,
never was it a gruesome task,

so I write you this poem under candle light,
with Sinatra singing of tramps,
keep bright that place in my heart,
and for you ill carry this lamp,

Ill be your lighthouse on the windy sea,
there for you to find,
there must be something about you,
for through the hurt imp still blind,

For the moment you look at me with those eyes,
and smile at my face,
I can not help but run to you,
with no question and fierce hast…

Modern Centurion

God watch over me now,
as my enemy fights from within,
the faces of woman and children,
he hides behind my fear of sin,

from inside the buildings,
to outside on the streets,
he fights me from the inside,
draped in the summer heat,

one by one my brothers fall,
fighting a force we cannot see,
God grant me the serenity
to become what i truly must be,

I ask for your forgiveness,
if this is not what you wish for me to do,
all i hope for is that these actions,
are through the hopes of you,

Military Boy

Everyday I wake up and put on the green,
The uniform of a military man,
I go to work and do my job,
So the same you too can,

Far away from the soil here,
My brothers fall and die,
Tho I do not know their names,
I occasionally do sadly cry,

Each of my fallen brothers,
not only gave his life for you,
He made sure that today i am here,
my life still anew,

My mother and my father thank you,
For their little boy still phones,
My wife doesn’t stay awake at night,
Dreaming of burying my bones,

Tonight my little boy rests easy,
knowing tomorrow dad will play ball,
the dog awaits his walk with me,
anxious to hear my happy call,

my family around the world is happy,
knowing that tears will not drop,
that their fears and anxieties,
can all but almost stop,

but mostly brother i envy you,
yes i envy you in death,
for you gave the ultimate,
leaving behind all that is left,

as they bury your body in the ground,
i will look to the sky above,
know that as my brother,
i offer you all of my love,

the world may not understand,
the brotherhood of those who fight,
don’t worry yourself tho,
just your sacrifice is in my sights…