Archive for January, 2006
January 31, 2006 at 7:31 pm · Filed under Personal
Hello Everyone!
I think I have received more emails and calls over the past few days than ever before. Its awesome to hear from everyone and refreshing to know that the world over there are people who care enough to ask. On that note though, I am going to post this once and for all and you guys can all read it….
As most of you know I am going through a divorce right now. Hard to believe i know…I never expected to be here myself. So what happened right? What happened was I was cheated on. I will not go into the specifics but that is what happened. I can’t describe what the feeling or pain is like but just know its bad Those are all the details needed. I do not want to be vindictive or mean. As a Christian man I am not called to be either. I still very much care for her and wish her the best. She will still be apart of my prayers at night.
And that boys and girls is how just days after finding out I can write this with great joy and grace. It truly is a blessing from God that I am able to smile everyday. Unlike my wife, I am surrounded down here by great friends and family. I look back and realize that i should never have had this job, never should have met Kris and started ministry, never got into an apartment right next to my Priest, and never been lucky enough to be blessed with such great support in my life. If you can’t see God at work I don’t know what it would take. And that is why I feel sad for my Wife. For those of you who know what I am talking about, I am filled with an uncanny sense of love and compassion. Don’t think this is of my doing, know that this is purely the spirit alive and well in me. So what I ask of all of you is prayer…pray for my family as they too hurt. Pray for my friends as they must also be strained by simply fact of knowing me. Pray for her family as it too must be a shock and pain. Most of all pray for her. Maybe this will be the one time that she truly turns to the Lord and accepts his forgiveness. If by me attempting to live my life as a Good Christian man she finds the peace…then it won’t be in vein. Thank you everyone…God Bless and once again thank you for you love and support.
— Nick
January 29, 2006 at 1:38 pm · Filed under Personal
The nervous is gone…the pain subsiding….thank you to all my friends and family for your prayers. You are all truly blessings…
January 23, 2006 at 7:03 pm · Filed under Personal
Wow….I can only hope that my fingers can type as fast as my heart is racing. My wife is in Baltimore. Thats right she is exactly 15 hours away from landing in Shreveport. I have to admit that I don’t feel at ease. I am excited because of part of me believes in her heart somewhere she is the same girl. And then the other half of me is nervous like a kid going to prom because I know she isn’t. I almost have to convince her to fall in love with me all over again. I have to sell myself like a man does in a used car lot…making sure to be the perfect man. But I have accepted that I am not the perfect man. I am Nick Schmidt. The best I can hope for is everything God has made me. I have flowers all over the house, a bubble bath kit and candles upstairs for her. I have cleaned the house from the top to the bottom, inside and out. I detailed her car to make sure it sparkled like the smile I will have for her when she comes off the plane. And yet somehow I question myself. I question if it will all workout. I wonder if this time next year on 23 Jan 2007, if I will be writing again as a single man. I have attempted to keep my spirits high. God hates divorce, truly…and I know that if I try my hardest in everything I do that I will be left without guilt. It will not be of my doings. I ask of all you out there…pray. I know what a simple concept, but please just pray. If you are agnostic or atheist than find God and pray. If only out of the friendship we share. I want my wife back. I want for the Lord to open her heart and let me love again. The Bible speaks this so true. Man is to leave his Mother and Father and become one with his wife. Without her I will be but half the person I have been. I know and trust the Lord. If that is what happens, then it will be by His loving grace the days will continue on. I almost feel sad for her, she has yet to find the peace I have within. I do not wonder anything but the Lord’s plan for me. Everything else are just details…God Bless Brothers and Sisters,
Nick
January 23, 2006 at 6:46 pm · Filed under Personal
Its getting about that time when the military sends my wife home. I am not sure what will happen or anything…what I do know is its time! There is such a strain on my soul after all this. I can’t wait to have her home. I love and miss her so!
January 17, 2006 at 11:09 pm · Filed under Personal
You ever get the feeling that sometimes your life is on a big wheel? I swear right now God is humbling my like never before. I should have known better than to have grandeur’s of superiority to His plan for me. I hope soon that my wheel stops spinning and those around me can join me on one of those slices. I am tired of not knowing. It is pulling it all out of me 
Pray for me if you could, my strength is waning in this time. If only I was more like Christ. That is all I can strive to be right now.
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