Revolving Door

I can’t say the words
They hurt to much to even think,
I wonder if these will be the last,
That finally shove us over the brink,

You have played with my heart,
We have gone to far,
I can’t take this anymore,
Stuck in the emotional revolving door,

Let me go and say its done,
I feel I am holding on to the end,
The chances have been there,
To let you try and start over again,

I weep at night at the thought of it,
The night will be so lonely,
But at least I know that in my solitary,
At least it will be my love only,

Now its a question of morality,
Are you still truly mine alone,
I wonder all the times you don’t call,
Are you out with a wannabe clone?

I debate whether tonight I will answer,
As the phone rings once or twice,
Will I have the strength to carry on,
Or just end this horrid life,

I pray to God every minute,
To give me peace in my soul,
Take what pain I have inside,
Fill the spot you left a hole,

I deserve better than this,
If only I could convince myself to give it,
To someone other than you,
Will my heart even permit?